Let the sunshine in… and brighten up the darkness

It has been brought to my attention that most if not all of my posts about dealing with depression have been, well, a bit too depressing. I respect and appreciate this person’s concerns as well as the concerns of any others who might walk away from my blog with the same feelings. I want you all to know it isn’t doom and gloom every day around here.

Today, for example, Diesel, Choo-choo, and I went to a car show. It was nice to get out of the house on a gorgeous day, but it was even better going to an event we would all like.

Choo-choo actually attended his first car show while I was still pregnant. Diesel and I have attended countless car and truck shows over the years, both separately and together. Once Choo-choo came along, we of course included him in our annual trips.

I might have mentioned this before, but Choo-choo loves cars, trucks, vehicles of almost any kind. After parking our truck, we started walking around the show. Choo-choo didn’t get to see much at first because he was in his stroller with the “awning” part pulled down pretty far due to wind. He was still able to look around, but he couldn’t see much of the automobiles. (He did say hi to several people and even a few smaller dogs, which is major because, for the most part, he’s shown a lot of fear toward dogs.)

After a quick lunch from several food vendors, including an elephant ear that Diesel and I expected Choo-choo to like more than he seemed to, we sat next to our truck for a while to relax. Diesel took Choo-choo out of the stroller, letting him play in the grassy area nearby. When we set off to wander around the show again, Choo-choo decided to walk.

That was probably one of the best decisions of the day. Because he wasn’t contained in the stroller, he was able to really look at the cars up close. Diesel picked him up to look in at every engine and see inside to the interiors. Choo-choo went from car to car with such joy and excitement. His oohs and aahs were adorable, to say the least. And yes, my two year old actually said “ooh” about a really cool Hudson that Diesel was also very fascinated with.

Seeing Choo-choo talk about shiny engines and rusty trucks and anything else that caught his eye was a joy for both Diesel and me. I love seeing him so passionately interested in things, even if he didn’t quite understand what all the parts of the vehicles were or what they were called.

I had a wonderful day with my husband and son. I cherish days like this and the moments we shared in them. In my darkest days, I know I still have these memories and I also know I have the power to create more.


Author: stepbackandbreathe33

I am a writer, mother, wife, and fighter in the battle against depression, anxiety, OCD, and PTSD.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s