The sunshine in my life

It has been said before, but I will say it again: It’s okay to not be okay.

A big chunk of yesterday afternoon was a total crap fest. Completely and utterly stressful. My mind was full of chaos and frustration, and I ended up an emotional wreck. I cried so hard I developed an intense headache.

Choo-choo cried because I was crying. There just wasn’t anything else I could do in the moment. I sat on my bed and sobbed until I felt like I was capable of moving on.

Sometimes, that’s just what you need to do. Cry out the pain, the anger, the sadness, the confusion. Whatever is affecting you. I know from experience that there are times when it really is better to let it out rather than hold it in.

Then go about your day. In my case, I wiped away my tears, dried my face, and comforted my son. He so desperately wanted to play, and he so desperately wanted me to play with him. Play for him is a way of feeling better, of becoming happier. He knew it would be good for both of us.

I can’t begin to tell you how much I love that tender-hearted, caring, loving little boy and how thankful I am to be his mom. I had my moment of wallowing in my pain, then he helped me pull myself out into the sunshine again.

I want you all to know this is possible for you, too. Wallow if you need to, but also remember to pull yourself out of the dark into the sunshine. It really is better in the light.

Author: stepbackandbreathe33

I am a writer, mother, wife, and fighter in the battle against depression, anxiety, OCD, and PTSD.

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