Out of the shadows

As Diesel, Choo-choo, and I were leaving our house headed to a car show Sunday morning, Diesel stopped the truck at the end of the driveway. I looked at him in surprise as he told me, “Go look by the porch.”

That’s it. Just “Go look by the porch,” but no reason for doing so.

With confusion dripping from my every pore, I unbuckled my seat belt, exited the truck, and walked to where he told me. There I found this:


Let me just say we have never, ever seen this plant in our yard before. We have peonies, black-eyed Susans, Queen Anne’s lace, and many others. Hydrangeas, however, have never been among the mix.

Or so we thought.

Apparently, after our corner tree was cut down by our town due to its rot and safety hazard possibility, enough light was able to stream through our thick forest of ferns for this gorgeous flower to bloom. Had the tree stayed, we never would have seen this blossom again.

Isn’t it funny how that happens? I mean, there we were hating the tree yet sad to see it go. It had taken years for that one day to come when it was chopped up, most of it pulverized into dust. And all that time, all those moments of us thinking maybe we wanted to hold on to a dying, rotting, pain in the butt, there was a beautiful life hiding in the shadows, unable to set itself free.

This speaks to me in so many ways right now. Of the messes I’ve tried to hold on to. Of being afraid to see what lie beneath the familiar darkness. Of the beauty and joy that can grow and blossom if allowed.

If any of you have been stuck hiding in the shadows, know that it’s okay to peek out into the light. It’s okay to let in as much light as you need. It might feel scary and intimidating and uncomfortable, but the life that follows will be so worth it. YOU are so worth it.

Author: stepbackandbreathe33

I am a writer, mother, wife, and fighter in the battle against depression, anxiety, OCD, and PTSD.

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