I’ve been avoiding talking about the events that have recently occurred in America. This is not because I don’t care. I care immensely about people, both in my country and around the world. So much so that I find myself in a catch-22, avoiding the news because it hurts too much to know what is happening yet unable and unwilling to turn a blind eye.
First let me say that I completely cut out news of any kind from my life for at least a year. I had to. My depression and anxiety grew worse every day seeing the kind of destruction and hate human beings are capable of. It was so bad that Diesel had to remind me to watch more funny cat videos than news reels.
Only recently have I begun to do more than just skim the news headlines in order to have an idea of what is happening in the world. And I have to say it often makes me wish I were a turtle with a shell to hide in and keep all the bad things out.
I can’t though. Maybe some of us can, but I can’t. I am both disgusted and horrified at the events that transpired in Charlottesville, Virginia. How can some people be so filled with hate and animosity that they willfully attack those who disagree? How could a guy (I will not call him a man) plow his car into a crowd of fellow citizens without a care as to who is injured or killed? How can the president of our country not have the guts to call the act what it was, instead spewing some lame excuse for a reaction and (surprise, surprise) blaming the victims?
Before Choo-choo was born, even before I was ever pregnant, I worried about the state of the world I would be bringing my child into. This fear is so much worse now that I’m not sure “fear” is a strong enough word anymore. Every day I read about neo-Nazis, bombings, shootings, child abductions, sex slavery, and so much more. It breaks my heart. It makes me wish superhuman abilities were real so kind, ordinary people like me could bust up every evildoer and save all the innocent victims.
I’m not trying to make this political at all, but I can’t help but wonder with the current leadership, what is going to happen to this country in the next even year or two? Will there be any kind of stability here for my son to grow up in? At what point will Diesel and I have to explain to our sweet, innocent child that there are hateful, evil people in this world who wish to cause harm to others?