When anxiety rages but there is still music in your heart

 

Lately, my anxiety has been turning into anger/rage more than I care to admit.

But I’m admitting it because I think it is important to talk about this issue. Anxiety is so much more than simply feeling scared. It is an overwhelming, often all-consuming, sometimes paralyzing emotion. Anxiety can also manifest itself as anger and rage despite the fact that a lot of people still don’t either know or accept this.

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About that weekend vacation… (Part 1)

So, remember how I told you about the awful ending to our weekend? Well, here are all those details you wanted:

The Good:

Things started off well before we even left. Diesel had the whole trip planned out, which is a huge deal. I like having vacations scheduled to the hour or even minute. Diesel, on the other hand, is a free spirit when it comes to travel. He likes to be as spontaneous as possible. The fact that he had an activity planned for us every day of this trip was amazing!

With help from both of our parents, we were packed and ready in less time than normal. Nearly stress-free, too, which was Continue reading “About that weekend vacation… (Part 1)”

End of the weekend update

So, Diesel, Choo-choo, and I returned home from our last camping trip of the year a few short hours ago now. I’m too tired to give details just yet, but I can say Continue reading “End of the weekend update”

My thoughts after the Women’s Retreat

So, I’ve told you what the retreat was all about. I mean, I learned so many things during and because of it. I now have new tools to help combat stress and let go of the past. I discovered that so many women suffer in silence while dealing with the same or similar fears, worries, and stresses. I learned new things about Continue reading “My thoughts after the Women’s Retreat”

Late night revelation

Asleep Woman Lying on Bed

My bed is calling to me right now. Choo-choo kept me up for two and a half hours in the middle of the night. No matter how many times I rocked him, sang to him, cuddled with him, and gave him hugs and kisses, he just wouldn’t lie in his bed for longer than ten or so minutes without yelling for me again.

I was angry and frustrated about it. I mean, come on. He deprived me of nearly three hours of desperately needed sleep.

Then I started to think. Continue reading “Late night revelation”

Having a mid-anger crisis

I lost it. I totally freaking lost it. Choo-choo and I had two nearly perfect days, then I snapped.

Portrait of exhausted woman

After being called up to his room for the twentieth time in half an hour during nap time, all my hard work went into the toilet. Continue reading “Having a mid-anger crisis”

Respect

I have been working so hard, attempting to improve my health and my moods, attempting to be the best mom and wife I can be, all the while following my passion that is writing. Today I failed. Miserably. Most especially with Choo-choo.

Yes, he is a toddler. Yes, this is a very trying time. But today it was more than that. It is abundantly clear that he does not respect me.

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