The Women’s Retreat, Part 1

Something happened this past weekend. I had an experience like never before.

happy-womens-day-greeting-card_zJzBrcD__LLet me give you the backstory first.

A while ago, a dear relative (you know her as St. Brigid) invited me to join her at a women’s retreat, aptly named “Time to Breathe.” I agreed, of course. Mostly for her but also partly for me.

I had never been to a retreat or workshop before and wasn’t sure what to expect. Was I going to be nervous or feel uncomfortable? Were my fears going to get me, bringing out my shyness and anxiety? Was the day going to end (or start) with tears?

Finally, the Saturday of the retreat was here. Continue reading “The Women’s Retreat, Part 1”

Our unwanted “guest”

On a quiet, normal day, Diesel sits in the living room playing a game with Choo-choo before leaving for work. I go out to the mudroom to start a load of dirty clothes in the washing machine. I open the dryer and washer doors. Out of the corner of my eye, I see something small and brown. I think it’s a chipmunk or squirrel that got into the house and figure I will tell Diesel about it when I take the clean clothes into the living room.

Then it moves. Not only does it move, but it Continue reading “Our unwanted “guest””

Becoming the new old me

As I make my way through life right now, even with shyness and depression and fears galore, I feel like I am finally becoming me again. I have dreams I am working toward. I have goals I want to reach. I know where I’d like to be five years from now.

I honestly do feel just like a butterfly right now. I have emerged from Continue reading “Becoming the new old me”

Mother-son heart-to-heart

Remember those bad dreams of Choo-choo’s I told you about?

Well, when I was rocking him for bed, I could feel him trembling. I asked him if he was okay, but he told me he didn’t want to talk about it. Once it was time for him to go into his bed, he immediately started crying and the shaking got worse.

This surprised me, as he never showed any fear about sleeping in his bed. I didn’t know what to do. I did the only thing I could think of, which was to ask him why he was scared. Continue reading “Mother-son heart-to-heart”

Our Anniversary

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Photograph done by the fabulously talented Memories by Mandy Photography. This is not a paid endorsement, I just LOVE the pictures she took for our wedding ❤

 

Diesel and I are celebrating six years of marriage this September. At the time of our wedding, we had already been in a relationship for over six years. This means we have survived a dozen years together.

When we first wed, I thought Diesel and I had no disillusions about what married life would be like. Continue reading “Our Anniversary”

Saying goodbye to a dream

I decided to sell my wedding dress.

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Taken by the fabulous Memories by Mandy Photography in Rockford, Michigan. By the way, this is not a sponsored post. I just really LOVE the pictures she took for our wedding ❤

This might not seem like a big deal to most people. The thing is, I was in love with Continue reading “Saying goodbye to a dream”

Being mindful of my attitudes

So, I told you yesterday about my fun-filled day with Choo-choo. I thought for sure that since we had such a great day, we would naturally have a great night, too.

No such luck.

Yep. We had another long night. Choo-choo woke up and called to me 15 times throughout the night, from midnight to just after 6 AM. I’m not even kidding. I wish I were.

The thing about long, sleepless nights while battling depression is that no sleep equals no peace of mind. Continue reading “Being mindful of my attitudes”