Like mother, like son

Choo-choo and I were playing with his blocks in the living room last night. We’d had a busy day, but it was quickly approaching bedtime. “Okay, sweetie,” I told him, “You’ve had your extra time to play, but now we need to pick this all up. We can play again tomorrow.”Like mother, like son

I began putting the blocks back in their container.

My son, meanwhile, panicked. His eyes grew wide and worried. Continue reading “Like mother, like son”

Progress, Progress, Progress!

You guys, two really amazing things happened this weekend!

First off, yesterday, Diesel, Choo-choo, and I went to my parents’ house for Thanksgiving. I decided I wanted to try driving again, especially since my parents don’t live so far away that I wouldn’t be able to handle it. There was just one issue: Choo-choo was going to be in the car with us.

Many, many times have I sat in my therapist’s office in tears explaining to her my deep-seeded fears of driving while my son is in the car. I’ve had near panic attacks at the thought.

Progress, Progress, Progress!

But then I decided Continue reading “Progress, Progress, Progress!”

What dreams may come?

What do dreams mean? Do they mean anything at all?

What dreams may come?

Often, my dreams take place in one of two locations: my parents’ current house (where they have lived since I was 13) in mostly quiet, forest-like woods with a long, winding gravel/dirt driveway and my grandparents’ old house (currently my bio dad’s house). The house that belonged to my grandparents has two separate staircases to go upstairs, a dark, kinda creepy basement (to a child anyway), and Continue reading “What dreams may come?”

When anxiety rages but there is still music in your heart

 

Lately, my anxiety has been turning into anger/rage more than I care to admit.

But I’m admitting it because I think it is important to talk about this issue. Anxiety is so much more than simply feeling scared. It is an overwhelming, often all-consuming, sometimes paralyzing emotion. Anxiety can also manifest itself as anger and rage despite the fact that a lot of people still don’t either know or accept this.

When anxiety rages but there is still music in your heart Continue reading “When anxiety rages but there is still music in your heart”

“I have confidence in me!”

…Except that I don’t.

"I have confidence in me!"

This is what my therapist and concluded at my last session. We both knew about my lack of confidence before, of course. The topic has come up a lot. Only I did not fully realize Continue reading ““I have confidence in me!””

Welcome Wednesday

This is a first for me. I am welcoming a guest today. She is someone very dear to me who has asked to remain anonymous. You will all know her as Enid Carolena, a small, strong woman who is devoted to God. Before now, Enid Carolena had been too afraid to put words to her struggles. I hope you give her the same grace you give me. Without further ado, here is Enid Carolena’s story: Continue reading “Welcome Wednesday”

The Women’s Retreat, Part 4

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Our day in the woods was almost over. But not quite yet. We still had a meditation session to do.

This was yet another part in the day that I was unsure of. I’d never meditated before. I’ve done deep breathing exercises at the end of a yoga session, but I didn’t have any idea if that’s how it was going to be at the retreat.

The meditation leader, another mental health professional, encouraged us to get comfortable in our chairs and close our eyes. She then began talking us through our breathing. As each thought or distraction came to us, we were told to Continue reading “The Women’s Retreat, Part 4”