Sweet little lies

Have any of you ever lied to your kids? I’m not talking about the type of lying that would hurt them or even lies meant to protect them. I simply mean the little fibs to make life just a bit easier.

Here’s an example: I was making a snack for Choo-choo and asked him what he wanted to eat. He told me he wanted crackers and sunflower seed butter. Well, we are currently out of sunflower seed butter. Since I no longer have Continue reading “Sweet little lies”

Mother-son heart-to-heart

Remember those bad dreams of Choo-choo’s I told you about?

Well, when I was rocking him for bed, I could feel him trembling. I asked him if he was okay, but he told me he didn’t want to talk about it. Once it was time for him to go into his bed, he immediately started crying and the shaking got worse.

This surprised me, as he never showed any fear about sleeping in his bed. I didn’t know what to do. I did the only thing I could think of, which was to ask him why he was scared. Continue reading “Mother-son heart-to-heart”

Bad night in dreamland

Choo-choo woke up in the middle of the night again.

A small part of me was instantly annoyed. I mean, I was exhausted. I didn’t want to rock. I didn’t want to answer a million questions. I just wanted to sleep. The rest of me worried why he was crying as in sobbing and not just whining or calling out to me like normal. Continue reading “Bad night in dreamland”

Being mindful of my attitudes

So, I told you yesterday about my fun-filled day with Choo-choo. I thought for sure that since we had such a great day, we would naturally have a great night, too.

No such luck.

Yep. We had another long night. Choo-choo woke up and called to me 15 times throughout the night, from midnight to just after 6 AM. I’m not even kidding. I wish I were.

The thing about long, sleepless nights while battling depression is that no sleep equals no peace of mind. Continue reading “Being mindful of my attitudes”

One of those nights…

Early Morning Alarm Call At Three AMMy body aches. My voice is a bit hoarse. My stomach churns with nausea. My eyes want to close and stay that way for a while. I feel hung-over, in an unpleasant, I didn’t even get to enjoy what led me here kind of way. Continue reading “One of those nights…”

I knew it!

So, remember when I said I didn’t want to mention how Choo-choo started sleeping through the night because I did not want to jinx it? Yeah, I jinxed it. Totally and completely.

The full sleep only lasted another day before he started waking up at odd hours of the night. Just yesterday, he called me up to his room three times within four hours of bedtime. I’m exhausted and irritated. I thought it was going to be smooth sailing, and instead, I am having to re-teach him how to sleep all night again.

I would love to be optimistic and say it will all be better soon. That Choo-choo will get the hang of it again in no time. Unfortunately, I am just not feeling it right now. I don’t think this is going to be easy. I think it’s going to be as difficult as it was before. Please wish me luck!

Progress (and it’s a big one!)

I haven’t posted about this yet because I don’t want to jinx it, but Choo-choo has been sleeping through the night. YAY!!! I mean, this is seriously awesome.

He hadn’t slept all night through in I literally cannot remember how long. I thought it would never happen. There was one little blip earlier this year, but that ended rather quickly. I had completely given up hope. I even stopped mentioning it to him. Continue reading “Progress (and it’s a big one!)”